Our video profile was posted on September 10 and it was, one one hand, a big relief. We went around and around with our agency over the video contract and then we ran into all sorts of problems actually getting it filmed.
What kinds of problems, you ask? Well, for example, I had an Avastin injection on July 2 that resulted in a big, red burst blood vessel in the white of my eye that was hardly the kind of thing I wanted immortalized on video. Then our puppy, Casey, got into the foam packing for the video camera and destroyed it. Oh puppy.
Anyway, once the video was posted, I was relieved. For about three days.
That’s how long it took me to realize there was nothing left for us to do. We filed all our paperwork. We passed our home study. We filled out the Adoption Planning Questionnaire. We created our family profile. We filmed our video profile. All the tasks were done and all that was left was the wait. We’d been waiting for three months already by the time the video was posted, but our profile wasn’t technically complete until that video was online. Until then, I was still mentally checking things off a list.
And now I’ve come to the end of the list. Nothing from this point forward is in my control. We’re just waiting for time to pass.
It’s terrifying. As a project-oriented person, the end of a to do list leaves me feeling at odds.
I waited a month, hopping that feeling would pass. No such luck. A series of events in late September left me feeling even less in control of the world.
Our called our adoption specialist who offered this advice on passing the time: Decorate the nursery. Travel (with trip insurance). Go out to dinner and to the movies. Finish up any lingering house projects.
Oh – and start thinking about new photos we might want to put on our profile in three months or so.
Ah-ha! A project …